Overflowing overload over-the-top overthinking
I feel like life has been taken from me. I’m barely surviving on drained batteries, stumbling through hazy days, weighed down by sleepless nights and a surplus of thoughts. It amazes me how my brain can turn on itself, attacking on repeat. This isn’t the first time, and it won’t be the last. I can feel the suffocation even in my writing—sentences grow shorter, unfinished, like panicked breaths. Yet this connection between my inner turbulence and the words I write is what keeps me grounded.
I dig deeper, searching for the root of the problem, but I find nothing. I’m exhausted. Without clarity, I can’t think, and without my mind, I am lost. My brain is my weapon against the world. Without it, I am defenseless. And yet, a war is approaching — a war I cannot afford to lose. If I lose the war, I lose the world.
I know I will make it through, somehow. I always do. But the path ahead is uncertain, and now, with my injured ankle, I know it will be slower than usual. I need patience.
I have to trust myself and the process, even if the flow feels muddy and polluted. Eventually, clean waters will come. But first, the bad must be pushed out. This is the process of shedding—stripping away the dead layers of the mind to make room for something new. A deep cleanse is painful, but it’s necessary. I just need to endure it.
While I wait for the shedding to finish, I must maintain balance. The changing waters are distracting, but I can’t allow myself to drown in them. I must stay afloat—tracking the shores, the currents, and the life that surrounds me.
This journey is a series of small, deliberate steps, taken day by day, minute by minute. Rome wasn’t built in a day, and neither can I rebuild myself overnight. This process is an opportunity to assess what works and what doesn’t, what serves me and what I can let go of.
It’s like rebooting a system. Starting with a clean slate clears the cache, freeing space for new priorities or old ones that deserve attention. The overwhelm I feel now is just my system recalibrating, preparing to run more efficiently. When this is over, I will move forward with clarity and purpose. Until then, patience is key.
But wait, maybe it’s not patience I need. Maybe it’s acceptance. I have to stop fighting it. The more I resist, the more power it has over me. Instead, I need to embrace it. Acceptance is what will transform this struggle into another brick for my mind castle—each hardship a vital piece in building something bigger, better, and stronger than before.
Over time I’m slowly gathering all the materials I need for the ultimate upgrade. Some materials are harsher than others, more solid and resistant. That’s why I need them for an enduring, stable ground. I can’t possibly build a castle with soft, silky fabrics only. The core must be strong, potent, and powerful.
True strength cannot be obtained without struggle—without battles fought in the battlefield of my mind. Each conflict, no matter how painful, provides the bricks I need to create a fortress of resilience, beauty, and purpose.

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